lama dh hok

cause i dh lama dh duk kat sini so i decided to talk in the slang ; well wherever i can insert them anyways

so
lama dh hok ak dk blog
bkn buat mnde pun
duk situ snyp snyp

on the second day after i arrived
i and S and PY gi main hujan
besht
anyways we run around played in the little flood hk ada
pastu gi beli milo kat kdi cik nah

sad part was that PY deman pulok.

its been 8 days since ive been here.
raya haji is tomorrow
nk rebang pulak laaa
LOL

yea i gt nothing else to say
ak gi dulu eh

ive had enough

just gt a call from me mamah

and we discussed about the me balik terengganu plan

she said that if S wants to go with me then i could come see them off before they go to haji.

and you know what else she said?

"you can come with everyone,say goodbye,cry cry a bit"

when she said "cry cry a bit"
in my head it was like "ive had enough of crying la"
i seriously felt hollow inside

now im thinking of going off earlier than they are

i shall use the only excuse i have left

bai

hey fucktards

listen up idiots and listen up well

I DONT GIVE A FUCKING DAMN BOUT YOU ANYMORE

remember that stupid bitches

hello people with awesome siblings

well after years of feeling like an outcasted sister
i still feel like an outcasted sister even when my siblings arent here
i always feel left out

recently my uncle posted a lot of family photos and tagged everyone
that was probably the only time that i independently talked to my sister and it was about a sidekick
you know the t-mobile thing
how lame is that?

let me give you a fragment of my childhood memories;

you know how i always say that im closer to my cousins compared to my siblings?
well yeah a couple of weeks ago
i realised that my relationship with my cousins now was way different then it was before.
you see,
i was always the one being bullied,left out,ignored and so on

i remember when i was playing galah panjang with my cousins
i was in S's team
when i dindt run fast enough or dodge fast enough
S would always be like "your the reason why we lost.why dindt you run/dodge fast enough?why dont you just quit the game?"
and yeah i felt like crying that time but i stood strong cause i thought he would say that to rest of the team who messed up.
but i was wrong
when M made us lose,S was like "*playfully saying*alaaa why dindt you dodge it?*smile*"
when i realised the fact that i had "special" treatment of course la i cried
then i ran into the house i cried.

like how unfair is that right?

then after i finished crying i swallowed uo my pride and went back outside and asked if i could play again.
then i tried my hardest to run/dodge faster

now,that little piece of memory made me realise that i would always change my self to suit others.

lately ive been confronting my cousins about why they treated me differently
you wanna know why i ask them that?
so that i would know what i did wrong so i could change my self to stop them from treating me like that.

im not sure if their still treating me like that
it feels friendlier now but i still cant shake the feeling of being outcasted sometimes

ive tried to stop changing my self to suit others
you know to just nt guve a fuck

but i cant

how lame am i?

i hate my life

lazy fat-ass

as you can see i put that up for the title

so lets get started

the reason why im blogging today and nt nxt week is because this nxt weeks exams is all paper 2
so i feel very free~

*flies*

i wish i had wings
then i could

*flies*

right
i shall continue with what happened on the wedding day

so after the guy gt the number
S was like why did you let the guy take yr picture?do you even know what he could do with that?to L
and shes like well i dindt know what to do.biar jelah di amik.i thought he was gonna take it with his sister.i should i know that i was the only one being snapped?
and on on it goes

so me and M decided to get some ais-kacang and sat on the curb for awhile under the shade
then behind me i heard someone said "ho dia habis PMR doh"
so i looked behind and saw the guy with his family
and im like shit the whole family is in this
so then we played fair
i told M to listen to their conversation,and nods
then the sis said"shes there *points*
i dindt even know where the hell L is so thanks to the pointing i found her
so i told M that they were searching for L
so she made her move to L and i followed.
so i told them that the whole family is in this
so S decided to call higher backups i.e BA and P
and they were like"that kids an idiot"

and all the time that guy kept looking at L

later that night,
i went to sleep early with L

theres an extended story about this thanks to PY's boyfriend
say something in my chatbox if you want to know bout the story
and thrust me
theres something in it you just wont expect and some really funny kampung shit

till later

for you my dear,

to you the(probably)only person who reads this shit

HAI

i shouldve posted what else happened at the wedding day but
malas la
you know me
the lazy fat-ass

i shall put that as the title for my next blog

rite
which will probably come next next week if im lazy

anyways so far
L stayed at my house last week
how long have i nt blogged?
anyways
i was probably a boring hostess
well what to do.i got SCHOOL man

but during the last night she was here
we had a nice heart to heart chat
i told her i hold grudges since we were kids

thrust me bitches you do not want to get into a heart to heart chat with me
cause i will ANNIHILATE yous :)
then i had another heart-to-heart chat with S on facebook
and he was like
ok ok whatever i did when we were kids im sorry
then he said he was sleepy and went offline

my favorite line to use against him would be
WHAT DO YOU HAVE AGAINST ME HUH??

well i should be studying sejarah
but im lazy
hence the lazy fat-ass

damn itttt
i havent studied a single piece of shit for sejarah
and the paper is tomorrow
owh well

FUCK IT

so ciao
wish me luck ;)